1.Field Of Flowers

let me let me know what makes you happy
and i'll do it over over and over again

let me know just how you love me
and we'll spin around again in this field of flowers we're in

i wish to quote from whitman now
to show the way i feel i feel about you
oh about you
because it's a subtle electric fire you light in me
every time i see you
so let's dance again in this field of flowers we're in

these lyrics are so frivolous they really have no meaning
but i wrote them for you and anywhere i would be with you
no matter where but for now we're here
so let's spin around again in this field of flowers we're in

let's spin again in this field of flowers we're in


2.Spotlight

big time bright lights
the world is looking for someone to show them the daylight
but it's not me i am not the one
for simple love look to the son

spotlight get me out of this spotlight
it looked okay but somehow it doesn't feel right
a lifelong dream now reality
i never thought that it could happen to me

big time high life
shattered hopes and disillusioned insight
he can give it to you and he can take it away
just as sure as the morning is the start of day

sometimes in your life
the world is going to put you under the spotlight
it's easy to follow not hard to pursue
you won't know that it happened to you


3.Fatherless And The Widow

Fatherless and the widow
Stricken down by the hand of death
Grasping for security
Anticipation of the imminent next
Of the imminent next

The fatherless and the widow
Find their souls filled with fear
Her lover gone forever
His hand to hold is never coming back
Never coming back

Behind closed doors they cry their tears
Behind closed doors they reveal their fears
To the God in heaven above
To the God in heaven above


4.Musings

Mysteries unfolding quickly before my eyes
In a way i saw the world in one night
Without even leaving
Without even leaving the room

Golden cymbals catching light
The flowing veils of dancers in the night
Put me in a swoon

Beating drums and violins so mystical and freeing
These things that i'm seeing
They're so wonderful

Oh the world is such a big place
And you have redeemed it
You have redeemed it
No reason to be afraid
You have redeemed it
You have redeemed us all

Culture after culture flash before my eyes
The semi-closed mind is now evident

Help me to remember this world is yours
You gave your life to bring the wayward back to you
The wayward back to you


5.Falling Leaves

Standing in the middle of a forest
Basking in the glorious autumn
Watching the leaves as they change
From green, from green to orange, yellow and brown
I'm falling down
I'm falling down

My emotions are deceiving me
Blinding my eyes from my nature
Robbing my quiet solitude
Of tranquility of tranquility
I'm falling down
I'm falling down

Oh, let these falling leaves cover me
Let me sink into the ground
Never be found


6.Meaningless

history merely repeats itself
nothing in this world is truly new
the sea churns as it feeds from the river at its mouth
the wind blows across the land from north to south
the laboring man spends his life getting nowhere

meaningless
it's all meaningless
all my life and labor is foolish
and now i don't have a reason anymore

come now be merry drink your drink
devour your feast don't stop to think
tomorrow you could be gone far away
so gather ye rosebuds while he may
tomorrow you could like in a silent grave
pawing the dust and awaiting the end of time

fear your god this is all i know

meaningless
it's all meaningless
all my life and labor is foolish
and now i don't have a reason
a reason to live anymore


7.Soul

Tell me father are you riding on
The fictional bus up to heaven above?

Do you listen to the angels on the outskirts
Have they persuaded you?
Oh tell me father
Perhaps you have been persuaded before
I just want to know where your body and soul
Roam tonight

But i know i'll never know
Until i pass away to the next life
I know i'll never know
Where your soul roams tonight
Until i reach the afterlife

Kneeling in this church of stone
On this pew reading my prayer book
'we commend to your lord
All the souls who have died.'
As you walk in the garden
Is the grass broken glass on your feet?
I want to believe when i think how i wasted my chance

And mother i pray
That it would happen someday
We would find you
Where we're going


8.Apology

Questions flew
And words were hurled into the air
And when the smoke had cleared
I saw you lying there
I used my words like bullets in a gun
To pick your ego off like skeet flung
In the gallery of fools

Too many words come from my mouth
I wish would remain unsaid
Oh I've had to eat them all and now I must confess

It was a silly thing to say to you
It was a silly thing to say to you, I know

We know

Trust (Reprise)
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge Him
And He will make your paths straight
Don't worry about about tomorrow
He's got it under control
Just trust in the Lord with all of your heart
And He will carry you through

Lord, sometimes it gets so tough
To keep my eyes on You
When things are going rough
But then I turn my eyes up to the sky
And I hear Your voice it says to me

You have much trouble in this world
I have overcome


9.Trust

Trust in the lord with all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge him
And he will make you paths straight
Don't worry about tomorrow
He's got it under control
Just trust in the lord with all of your heart
And he will carry you through

Lord, sometimes it gets so tough
To keep my eyes on you
When thinks are going rough
But when i turn my eyes up to the sky
And i hear your voice is says to me

So child do not be weary with the troubles
Of this world i have overcome


10.Angeltread

Crickets rhythmically sing
Their mournful melodies
A monotone by request
But they fail, they fail
To soothe the mess

Hands rhythmically grope
The sheets again for you
And off-rhythm the time slows
To make moments eternal
Moments eternal

Is this some kind of holy test
To stitch the treadmarks off my chest
To get up and walk outside my head
On a holy search for angeltread

Now i've lost my fear
So i pray that you come near
With a million sparkly lights
And help me, help me through the night

The milky prints of spirits near
I pray that they have lost their fear
A million wisps of sparkly light
Weaving through the walls...


11.Love, Salvation, The Fear Of Death

Well i'm staring straight into the face of hell
You're so close and you can't even tell
I'm so wrapped up inside
Because i don't have much to love

Horrified i feel from pits unseen
Falling off my pedestal of plentiful deeds
As it crumbles down on top of me
I contemplate my lack of love

Come and save my soul
Before it's not too late
I'm not afraid to admit
How much i hate myself

All these gongs and cymbals ring inside my head


12.Bleeding

Deep inside the darkest night
Is drinking in the light
From pinholes pricked
Holy needles knicked
In a canopy of white

I'm alone, i'm alone
And i'm beating my soul to make it bleed a drop of hope
Then i'll drink it up in a golden cup and let it grow inside

And i fear that you've gone away
But you must be somewhere near

The fire fades so the deepest shades
Slowly trickle down the wall
In a room i hide will i come outside
And have some kind of fall
All my words, all my words
They have lost all their worth
Nothing's good enough for anyone
And the look on my face
Leaves a subtle trace of the change
That is to come


13.Within A Room Somewhere(Radio Edit)

I breathe the mist
Floating about the stars
I can caress
With velvet hands
I breathe the mist
Floating within, without this pen
This pen between my fingers

Messiah
I know you are there
Within, without me
Holding me
Messiah
I know you are there
Catching, carrying
This beautiful mess

Escape the pain
Within a room somewhere
Escape the pain
So deep inside the soul
I have no key
No map to find


14.Meltong Alone


15.Circle Of Error

I see the wonder setting in
Over where i am going
And where i've been
And by the way when i kneel to pray
It never seems you're there
And i'll admit that i do not try
When it's easier to sit down and cry
I'm so full of doubt
Want to let it out
Let it out all over you
On my circle of error
I go round and round
On my circle of error
I go round and round again
I'm running things into the ground
All the truth i am seeking has not been found
And i am weak
All the words i speak
Bring no passion anymore
And will i try for happiness
In the midst of all this emptiness
All i want is you
If i only knew
How to get up off this floor


16.Garden

White ribbon
Wedding gown
She walked into the garden
What has she found
Oh sorrow
Untold sorrow
There would be no groom
She left him as she
Found him
Empty inside
But this time it was
Much too late
Nothing to hide
Oh her soul
Never left the garden
Black ribbon
Long black gown
She's walking through
Her memory
She's so alone


17.Disconnect

These things which i so often wonder
This need to create myself
Frustration forgotten through slumber
It's there when i wake
Defeated before i rise
I'd pull myself out of his mire
If i could collect my strength
Or muster an ounce of desire
Finding the words, and making them mine

Is there somewhere
I could seperate this feeling from memory
Disconnect myself from me?

Desire inside to mistreat you
It pushes words out of my mouth
This cyclical pattern i feed you
The back and forth, and up and down
But still here you are

Behind this veil of pious revelation
I'll close my eyes and look for worth inside
I don't deserve you

Relinquishing hope for the future
I try not to hate it so
But you are a bridge to those memories
I try to forget, if you only knew

Is there somewhere to occupy emotion
A room to keep my rage away from you?
Just tell me when these hopeless days are over
I'll open my eyes and see my new sun rise
I don't deserve this


18.Thought Menagerie

I only want what's mine
That's what i came to find
A little respect that's all
From you

Because one has his natural right
But somehow that doesn't seem right
Not when i look at myself

I was taken on a trip to see
A miniscule menagerie in my soul
Where all the thoughts have escaped the cage
And vamp across the spiritual plain

It's like i said before
I've got the right to ignore
The ruin in my self
If it involves change

And so i lay it down
Put my humanistic crown
On the shelf

I think i've changed my mind
I'd rather seek than find
The sorrow from you
I won't regret


19.Maybe Tomorrow

Hey i am having a little trouble
Again with myself
Today i would label out of the ordinary
Hey i read
The words to label him
Said he strikes a tune mighty fine
But in living life that's where he finds
Plenty of trouble
Hey i am
A book inside your hands
Will you turn the page and read the line
Where i reach the end and rid my mind
Of all this rubble
Let me out
Of this solitude
I want out
So i can be with you
Let me out
I want to touch you
Don't keep me here
Hey i am
Having a little trouble with myself


20.Drifting

Drifting away from you
Spinning down to the pinpoint drop of isolation
In a spell
Walking away from the fire
That keeps my heart
From turning ice
Golden feet grace the surface of the sea
Sinking deeper i view them from underneath
Flailing kicking as i head for the deep
I question a hypothetical lead supper
Oh god receive my outstretched hand
Will i inhale the blue
Spinning down upon the glass
A ghost towards realization of a cell
Enclosing the hauntings of a past
That blind the eyes
And rust the heart
So i fell
I need you to take my hand
And keep my heart from ice


21.I Can't Explain

I've wrapped myself up
In a universe again
And let the darkness quell
My matchflame confidence
And unwillingly i hide
The lever i must find
To release the deep
The tears withheld inside
But i can't explain
I can't make sense of the
Things i'm saying
The crystal tears
Are sliding down again
Your moonlit cheeks
And soaking silken lips
If this pain is so real
There's a hand that someday must heal
And give us the words
That time steals and won't let us say


22.Within A Room Somewhere(Radio Edit)

I breathe the mist
Floating about the stars
I can caress
With velvet hands
I breathe the mist
Floating within, without this pen
This pen between my fingers

Messiah
I know you are there
Within, without me
Holding me
Messiah
I know you are there
Catching, carrying
This beautiful mess

Escape the pain
Within a room somewhere
Escape the pain
So deep inside the soul
I have no key
No map to find


23.Within A Room Somewhere(Demo Version)

I breathe the mist
Floating about the stars
I can caress
With velvet hands
I breathe the mist
Floating within, without this pen
This pen between my fingers

Messiah
I know you are there
Within, without me
Holding me
Messiah
I know you are there
Catching, carrying
This beautiful mess

Escape the pain
Within a room somewhere
Escape the pain
So deep inside the soul
I have no key
No map to find


24.Healer

Amber liquid wetting winecups to the stem
Spilling drops to glisten on the earth like little gems
That myself mistook so foolishly when i stopped to steal a drink
of the liquid amber melting in my eyes, in my hands, and on my
lips

Earthy blankets full of golden lint and thread
I see the children play as I am on my way again
To another place; I'm sorry to say that we
Blurred the picket fence
Still the children play, they wrap themselves in the middle
To sip sunlight and drink innocence

Hey today
Beauty is my healer
Hey today
I'm gonna steal her


25.Dresses

In the middle of my mourning
Sits joy like ahappy child
In the middle of this death
I must cry with life for a while

And death is great
We are in his keep, laughing and whole
When we feel deep in life
He dares weep, deep in our soul

And you are gone
But you are perfect now
And you like to dress
You wear dresses that never fade

And you are gone
(my mother cried she said you'd gone away)
But you are perfect now
(and now a part of me must do the same)
And you like to dress
(but I know I must be thankful)
You wear dresses that never fade
You wear dresses that never fade


26.Carry You

When the water's too high
When the water's too high
I will carry you
I will carry you

When the streets are too hot
When the streets are too hot
I will carry you
I will carry you

Chorus
I will carry you
I will carry you
When the water's too high
I will carry you


When the night is too black
When the night is too black
I will carry you
I will carry you

When the water's too high
When the water's too high
I will carry you
I will carry you

Chorus


27.Alisha's First Steps


28.Solomon The Mystic